He's Always There

Sometimes things happen in life that you can’t understand. It’s easy to question God at times like this. It can be a trial, a hard time, a tough situation, or even a blessing you know that you don’t deserve. I grew up with a mother that loved me more than anything and a father that wasn’t around; but God was there. I was lucky enough to have my true dad come into my life at 8 years old and I am so thankful for that blessing. Not long after this occurred, my mother was diagnosed with a brain tumor that we were sure was going to take her life. It was inoperable, and radiation was the only treatment option. At 10 years old, and not understanding what was going on, life got really tough. But God was there. A few years later I went through a very difficult time in my life and had a significant struggle with my mental health. Depression had gotten the best of me and I started to question not only myself, but my salvation. I couldn’t understand why God would ever save me. I knew how little I deserved it. I was saved at 8 years old at Halltown Church during Revival. I will never forget the feeling of conviction, or the feeling of relief when I got off my knees. I knew that Christ had come into my life but somewhere along the line, I started to lose the battle mentally. I doubted, was fearful of death, and some days didn’t even want to live any more because of the pain and the hurt that I felt in my chest. But God brought me through and he told me that he had bigger plans for my life. I spent a lot of days and nights feeling lost and alone, but God was there.

I got married to my beautiful wife in August of 2018. We had dreams of a family and there was nothing we wanted more than to have kids and raise them up to love the Lord. However, things didn’t go as we had planned. We were told in November of 2021 that without IVF, we would most likely never be able to have children. My heart hurt worse than it ever had before. Not for me, but for my wife. The only thing she ever wanted was to be a mother and the feeling of not being able to fill that void was difficult to withstand. We went on to do IVF and were blessed with our first baby in May of 2023. We spent a lot of time asking why during the days leading up to, and even during, that process. But the amount of people that we have been able to share our testimony with and help along the way that are going through the same issues has been a blessing. Sometimes it is easy to think God isn’t answering you when, in reality, he is just giving you something better. In February of 2024, we found out that we were expecting our second child. What we had been told was impossible was always possible because God is the giver of life. What the doctors said was a 2% chance, turned into 100%. We serve a God who doesn’t work in percentages. He works in absolutes and he is in absolute and total control. We felt like we had no hope, but God was there.

My life has been filled with trials, hard times, and tough situations, but it’s those blessings that I know I don’t deserve that stick out in my mind. The blessing of beating the odds, making it through the fire, becoming a father, and seeing my mother be here to hold my children; these are the things that stand out to me. His blessings never end. I am thankful today that through all of the things that I have experienced since I accepted Christ, I get the opportunity to take the next step in my walk with the Lord as I prepare to become a deacon at Halltown; the church that I grew up in and the church that I love. I know that I will never be worthy of the opportunity but I am thankful that God has blessed me with the chance to serve him in a capacity that I hope will help grow his church universally. I am thankful every day that he didn’t ask us to deserve his love, he just asks us to serve in love. I hope that my story can encourage someone who got off to a rough start, got knocked down, or even wants to quit. Because no matter what is going on in this life, it is all about the life to come. Eternal life through Christ is all that matters, because God will be there.


Romans 12:12

“Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.”